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2024: Year in Review

Foreword I’m wrestling with traditions. Rituals. Marking the time as it goes by with more than the weekday-weekend split, more than simply naming the days by their slot in the seven-day cycle and their appointed month and number. For years, I had church and family traditions to give shape and meaning to the seasons. Candlelight services on Christmas Eve, family lunches at my mother’s family’s houses on Thanksgiving and Christmas, Lenten sacrifices, Easter sunrise services. Those have all fallen away with time and geographic distance. Alex’s and my family have scattered across the country from Alaskan islands to South Carolina pinelands, from hip college towns in California to forested suburbs in Missouri, and even the 100 miles between Philadelphia and Baltimore is increasingly a distance I am reluctant to cross. How to commit any given holiday to one part of the clan or the other? Each holiday we spend with my father is a time zone away from a holiday we could spend with Alex’s fa...
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Why I'm Crawling Back to Facebook

Y’all, I got a confession to make. I’ve been logging onto Facebook. I never deleted it. I stayed off of it mostly since I dramatically published my “ Why am I leaving Facebook and Instagram? ” post almost two and a half years ago. I didn’t delete my account because I had pictures on there and some old friends whose contact info I never got, and it was on my to do list to get those handled and delete the account since February of 2021. And it was nice that I didn’t since that still allowed me to occasionally dip onto the site if I wanted to look at a business’s Facebook page (yo, some places don’t bother doing websites anymore, just socials). But lately, I’ve been doing more than reluctantly logging on when FB tries to block my ability to view a restaurant’s updated hours. I’ve been scrolling. Just a bit. The top three or four posts and then that’s it. I might even click on the “Show All Comments” section. I haven’t commented or liked any posts myself because that would give away that...

Why Do We Like to Make Characters Suffer?

There's a question that I've been pondering lately: Why do people like seeing their favorite characters suffer? As many of you know, I love Final Fantasy VII. In particular, I love Cloud Strife, the moody sad boy protagonist of the game. Because of my great affection for this fictional man, I seek out (and write) fanfiction where Cloud faces a variety of hardships from childhood trauma to harrowing battle injuries to horrific laboratory experimentation to plain just being lonely. But why? Why do I like reading about a character that means a lot to me, who reminds me a lot of myself in some ways and has helped me understand myself better, suffering? Why do I seek out stories where he is in pain? And why am I not alone? There is an entire genre of fanfiction called “whump” where the writer’s favorite character is subjected to whatever sadistic imaginings the author can dream up. And people can dream up a lot of pain for Cloud Strife, largely because that’s sort of his deal in th...

Alex and I Went to California: A Trip in Photos

 Hello friends, Alex and I recently came back from an almost forgotten activity in the time of COVID: travel! That's right, we boarded a plane, and I only had my possessions seized by the TSA once! (Apparently they don't like knives on board a plane, psh, whatever). And we went ahead and got infected with the coronavirus two weeks before the trip, so we couldn't get sick from traveling. That's how that works, right? ...Right? For real though, we did wear masks as much as we could in the airports and on board and had been feeling much better for a while after being sick; we are responsible little citizens of the world! And lil' miss Hazel got to spend a week with one of her favorite friends: my sister! Yay! So now that we're back, I'd bet you'd like to hear what it was like in sunny California, huh? Well, on day one it was rainy and cold. See proof: cold Alex and her spirit animals. These pictures were taken on the Santa Cruz wharf, where we were buffeted...

Best of Media: February 2023 Edition

 Hey everyone! February is over already! And that can mean only one thing: pop culture round-up time! I don't have as many things this month because I spent less time reading, I guess? Pretty much my whole life is Final Fantasy VII  right now. But you'll hear about that later. Best Book of (My) February: Daughter of the Moon Goddess by Sue Lynn Tan. Book One of the Celestial Kingdom Duology The best book this month also happens to be the only book I read this month, so the competition was not fierce. I would rate this book as a solid B, maybe B+. If you're interested in Eastern (especially Chinese) mythology and romance, then I would definitely check it out. The world-building is pretty solid without being bogged down with complicated details, the protagonist is a badass woman who has the paradoxical problems of impulsively wearing her heart on her sleeve while also being emotionally guarded (#relatable), and there are dragons, magic, swords, and archery. All solid pros in ...